Everytime I sleep I see thoughts of you

Everytime I close my eyes my world burns with thoughts of new

Without life my dreams would beat beyond

I see dark and new everything through

Day by day my head spins

 My mind sins lips sting

Body cursed seeing thoughts without all of you

Now I lay smell this day smoke one more

Feeling that pain one less then yours I make it through my day

To not care is one thing but to sit back and watch me hurt when i truly needed you. All i wanted was for support you to be there when i reached a high maybe even a low. Nope I’m just another inconvenience to you! But yet you feel you do so much for me? I don’t even live with you so what on earth are you possibly doing for me?!? Even when I’m so far away you still manage to bring me down, why i keep believing that your gonna Show is a joke and I’m a fool. I never needed you as a child and i sure as hell don’t need you now!!!

To hate yourself is deep but one could never understand the nature of disliking themself so much that they didnt even wish to look in the mirror any longer they saw nothing but pure desgust and hatred but to have one wish as to have that fairytale and like what they see? and come home to open arms? once again just a fairytale or maybe a dream one shale never really know such a reality………

I sit and I watch, and I watch and I and sit

They stare back at me and see right thru

Every breathe taken filled with despair

Seeing the innocent be corrupted

The corrupted die young, and they just watch

Watch as we all fall to our knees

Wipe the tears from our eyes at night

Dry the blood from our broken and torn bodies

Then pray that this will be the last night alone

Fighting for a chance against the world

I will never surrender to the cold